In the masses.....

She breathed in deep as if it might be her last breath.  Heart pounding but desperate she made her way to join the masses.  She couldn't get to where she needed because of the amount of people, so she did what any normal crazy person would do and got on her knees to get it.  It didn't take much.  Just the hem.  All of the sudden HE stopped.  "Who touched me?".  Peter looked perplexed.  "Jesus, the crowds are pressing all around you. What do you mean who touched you?".

You will find this story in Luke chapter 8. In that moment when she touched the hem of Jesus' garment, she was healed.  But what sticks out to me the most is that so many people were around HIM.  So many people were brushing up against HIM and were close enough to touch HIS hand or HIS shoulder.  But it was the slightest touch of the bottom of his clothes that got HIS attention.  I am sure those surrounding HIM had needs but I think the difference is she touched HIM. She wasn't just in HIS presence.  She reached out to touch HIM.  Jesus said, "daughter, your faith has healed you.."

I am not sure where you may be on your "faith-o-meter" but mine has been kinda low.  Something about this story always stirs me.  The one thing I can say I learned this year is HIS faithfulness.   He is available.  I just need to reach out and touch HIM.  It's not just about being in HIS presence.

During the holidays I have found myself in the crowds of people desperate, drawing in that deep breath.  Turning on my worship music last night, I reached out.  My outward circumstances may not change.  But my heart finds peace and rest at the feet of Papa God! When you are surrounded by "the masses" and it seems as if the world is going on without you, just reach out to HIM and hold on. 

Crossroads

Well, it seems that this journey to our little one(s) can be bumpy more than smooth.  I cling to Romans 8:28 and 2Cor. 4:17&18 right now.  Refining is a good description!  I just heard back from our agency about the directions we can take and we have a lot of questions we have to ask ourselves and also need to hear from the Lord on!

Please pray for us! Its not easy to ask these questions and we want to be led by the Lord.  Not a day goes by that my heart doesn't yearn to hold these little ones in my arms.  I know some may avoid my posts because of how much I am putting on facebook about adoption and stories of specific orphans.  Truth is, I have thought about orphans since I was 15.   Now it just burns in my heart.  I am an advocate for teen moms, women in crisis and orphans.  Its my "soap box"! Some may say I have been on my soap box a little too much.  I can't help it!   Having been to Mexico and India, inside the orphanages, looking into those beautiful eyes messes you up.  I can close my eyes and still see their faces.  Thanks so much for reading my blog and for loving me through this.  Your support is priceless!  Please pray for us as we face another challenge.  I pray that this Christmas and New Year's is so full of love and laughter for you! And that you make many wonderful memories and hold each other tight!