Letting go and prayers for the fatherless

I remember sitting at the kitchen table with tears of frustration streaming down my face.  I loved math in school, but I could not figure out how to do this problem! And if I couldn't figure this one out the next ten were just like it!!  My dad was good at math but didn't finish highschool.  I didn't want to ask for help, I wanted to do it on my own! I like to figure it out on my own.  I am still like that today.  I will be tinkering with something and get frustrated.  Matt will ask if he can see it and I won't relinquish until I am ready to throw it!  I am stubborn.  I am independent.  If I can't figure something out or understand, I get frustrated and upset.  This is how I have been feeling this past week.  I just can't figure it out.  I recognize my need to control my situation is the very thing God is working on.  In order to find peace, I must place it in His hands.  It sounds so easy to do as I type this, but IT'S NOT! 

BUT, HIS WORD STANDS.  WHEN EVERY THING ELSE FADES, HIS WORD STANDS.  So I am retraining my 'stinking thinking'!  I am realizing the moments I am getting frustrated and taking that time to pray and speak with my mouth that this belongs to Jesus.  My life, my family, my future!  I may sound like a broken record but I am just being real.

We went to see Courageous tonite.  Incredible movie about the Father heart of God and a wonderful example of God's desire for family!  We both cried.  We can identify with heartbreak.  But letting God take the heartbreak and bring a Revolution! I hope God uses the heartbreaks we have faced to bring life in the lives of others.

This movie makes me want to be a parent even more!!!!  I can't wait! Matt loved it too and can't wait to implement things he learned from this movie as he becomes a daddy! 

This Sunday is orphan Sunday.  I hope that those who read this blog will take time to pray for the fatherless this Sunday.  You can go to DHR's website: http://www.adoptuskids.org/  or check out Lifeline adoption agencies waiting children list at http://www.lifelineadoption.org/ (some waiting children list are password protected).  Please pray for these angels.  Somewhere this is a little one or an older child whose heart is breaking because they just want to be loved by a mommy and daddy.  I don't know which direction God will take us for adoption, but I do believe we will be adopting internationally someday.