Timely Text

I have made a decision that I will not let this consume me.  Last year when we lost baby Canaan through the failed adoption I was so consumed with grief that it was difficult during the holidays.  I didn't even want to celebrate Christmas or Thanksgiving.  I know it was only God that pulled me out of that depression.  I am choosing NOT to let the enemy beat me down like that again!!!!  Matt and I were praying this morning about our grief and the mourning process.  We were praying blessings and that God would speak to our hearts.  I don't know if domestic adoption is for us.  Maybe we are not meant to have a newborn or an infant.  I don't know if God has called us to adopt an older child or calling  us to international adoption today instead of a few years down the road.  We prayed that God would open our hearts and our eyes to see what HE has for us.  One thing I do know is that we are called to be parents.  The deep desire that is in both our hearts is too strong and I know that God has put that there.  I don't understand HIS ways but I trust that HIS ways are way better than mine and I believe that the blessing of children is for us.

After Matt left for work I sat down to drink my coffee and I received a text.  I have so many wonderful Godly women in my life.  Some I don't even get to see but they check in and encourage me often.  My friend sent this timely text and I know it was God speaking to us after our morning time of prayer.  This is the message I received:

"THE PROOF OF DESIRE IS PURSUIT! Remembering that God wants to put desire in the spirits of broken people, be aware that there wouldn't be any desire if there weren't any relationship.  You can't desire something that's not there!  The very fact that you have a desire is in itself an indication that BETTER DAYS ARE COMING! EXPECT SOMETHING WONDERFUL TO HAPPEN! Meditate on Psalm 37:4, "Delight yourself also in the Lord; He shall give you the desires of your heart.  Surrender everything to the Lord.  Today give everything to Jesus Christ.  He's been waiting just for you.  You are special, beautifully made in His image.  Walk in purpose.  Your latter days are greater than your past.  The best, your best is yet to come!!!  May triple favor be upon you.  Do things God's way.  Watch Him shower you with His love and blessings."

I want you to know that this friend is not a friend on facebook and also does not know anything about this adoption.  She has no idea what we have just walked through.  I just told our family in September and didn't start fundraising but a few weeks ago.  I hadn't had a chance to tell her yet.  WOW! is all I can say.  Such an encouragement to us both.  I pray that God uses this blog to encourage you or someone you know walking through brokenness or disappointment.  I know GOD is going to be glorified through mine and Matt's life.  My heart is encouraged today.  Just that simple reminder that He hears us and He is answering.  I feel like I just got a bear hug from my Papa God!